I was casually scrolling through Facebook when I saw it.
It was an article detailing the sexual misconduct of Christian comedian, John Crist.
And, I stopped.
I read it.
I looked down and noticed the very shirt I was wearing was an autographed “Check Your Heart” shirt I bought last December at a John Crist show. We had gotten my son tickets to see him for his 16th birthday last year. Not only did we have tickets to the show, we had also attended his “Meet & Greet” session prior to the show.
I was so sick to my stomach.
I was disappointed.
But, most of all I was heart-broken to have to tell my son about this behavior from someone he admired.
I continued to wrestle with this information as we went to church.
I thought about the women who had been harassed, coerced, and misused. I got angry. I started fighting the “all men are so gross” thoughts that creep into my head when hearing a story like this. You see, I know what it feels like to be pressured into doing something I did not want to do. I know how it feels to be viewed as an object and not as a daughter of the King. Sadly, I know how heartbreakingly disappointing it is to see a “good Christian guy” fall into the trap of sexual sin. I feel for these women and pray God fully restores them.
As I sat in church, continuing to stew over this, my eyes drifted from the page that held our text for the evening. I started reading, and like the Holy Spirit does, He led me to just the passage I needed to see…
Titus 3: 3-7: “For we ourselves, also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another. But after that the kindness and love of God our Saviour toward man appeared. Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Ghost; Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.”
In the last few years, I have continually been disappointed by Christians in leadership roles who seem to be “falling away.”
The Christian women leaders who proclaim alternate lifestyles are okay, and that it is loving to embrace these lifestyles, rather than teaching the truth found in God’s Word.
The preachers who have sexually abused or misused women but continue to “preach.”
The Christian women teachers who have become politically-correct social justice warriors, rather than teachers of God’s Word.
The preachers who not only renounce their former beliefs, but completely walk away from the faith all together.
We start to wonder “What’s happening? Why are all these leaders committing such grievous sins?”
We start to wonder who we will have to look up to anymore.
And, then, with a reading of Titus 3:3-7, we can be reminded that WE ARE ALL SINNERS.
The only One to look up to is Jesus Christ.
We have all done things, grievous things, that we would not want another soul to find out. When we truly repent, we are ashamed and grief-stricken by how our sins have grieved our Lord, how they have destroyed us, and how they have spilled out and splashed on those we love most.
When we hear about horrendous things done by people we admire, our first response is to be repelled. And, we should be. Sin is repelling.
But we need to remember all of our sins repel God, and only through Jesus can we be reconciled to Him.
I pray for healing for these women as well as for healing for John Crist.
We need to remember….
But for the grace of God, go I…..